Sleep was pretty bad last night and I fought with the snooze button again. Not super proud of it but I can just try to improve. Riggs seems to be showing signs that he’s still sick as his meowing is more intense than ever. I’m trying to keep his eyes and nose clean(which he will fight you to the death over) and keep his water fresh.
There was another “restructuring” at work today. It’s kind of sickening really. 21 people came to work today just like any other day only to find out they were out of a job. Just like that. And being in the IT department, it’s our job to “clean up” these accounts and shut down access. So you end up feeling kind of like a grave digger or something. When I came in first thing this morning, Wendy told me about a weird email she got from a user after asking him to clean up his WebEx recordings. It wasn’t until after we saw all of the terminations come through that the email made sense, and it was incredibly sad.
Here is the actual message he sent:
As a small boy, one of the most vivid memories I have is the evening after I learned that we had to put down our beloved family dog of 13 years. I put on a brave face for most of the day but that evening I saw my mother picking up and emptying the dog’s food and water bowls. I lost my composure (do six year olds have composure?) when I comprehended the finality of what I was witnessing.
Although I wouldn’t dream to put myself in the same category as Chico our Dachshund, I want you to know I put away my own food and water bowl by removing all my WebEx recordings from our company wide 100GB allocation.
Thank you for always making interactions with IT pleasant ones.
And that is just freaking sad. It hurt to read that, to think about these people losing a job for probably no good reason other than whatever application they supported wasn’t selling well. That’s just not super cool. And things like this make me question my line of work. It’s literally the opposite of rewarding. You feel ashamed at times like that, when you are clearing someones desk who was just fired and people are glancing over at you somberly.
Tonight did not go at all like I expected it, but it was pretty awesome. I will have to write more about it tomorrow as it’s nearly 12:30am and I have to be at work at 6:30 for our big company meeting. So, fuck me.
So after work yesterday I went to the gym. It was nice, I had a good talk with Scott, longer than usual. I was extremely sore so I chose to sit out the class and did some oly lifting drills. It didn’t go too terribly bad, just doing 3 position snatch with 50 kilos felt super easy. But, the biggest problem is that my left knee that I “tweaked” a week or so ago isn’t getting better. Dropping below parallel in a squat will certainly irritate it. But anyways, I ran through some drills on snatch and then clean and power jerk. It all felt OK for not having done it in a long time. Then I moved onto some heavy deadlift and it got me questioning my math from the other day. I felt certain that I hit 360 lbs but pulling 315 yesterday felt *very* heavy. And my realistic max feels closer to 330. I dunno, I’ll have to test it out sometime when my body feels better and see. I finished up with Annie, because why not? Worked on some butterfly kipping before I left and that’s starting to feel pretty natural to me.
After leaving the gym I ran home and had a decent chat with Kristin before I had to turn right back around and run out to meet Marie at Lauretta Jean’s. This meeting did not go at all like I expected. My thought was I would meet up with her and chat for 45 minutes to an hour and then head to Laurie’s for burger night. Well, fast forward nearly 3 and a half hours and we are meandering around in the pouring rain and I realize I’m 15 blocks away from my car and I need to be downtown by 10:30 so as much as I didn’t want to stop the conversation, and neither did she, I had to split.
I met up with Joe at Ash Street downtown at around 10:45. I missed the first few songs from Crush Hazard but caught the next 6 or 7. They were pretty badass, I can see why Joe likes them, they have a unique sound. It’s kind of like mid-era Sabbath, like the stuff with Tony Martin, but with female vocals. Plus the singer is quite attractive for her age and I’m sure that definitely plays into Joe’s favoritism. After the show we went for a drink at a bar across the street and talked about my situation. It was good, but a little painful as Joe seemed legitimately stunned that Chels and I are separating. He just kept trying to pitch ways I should try to make it work and things like that. And maybe that’s just his way of being supportive and I appreciate it, but it did get my mind racing a little too much again.
We stayed until the bar closed at midnight and I didn’t actually lie down in my bed until at least 12:30. My alarm was set for 5:25 so that kind of sucked. But sleep came easily and I actually feel relatively well today. I’ve noticed that my energy has been up recently. I don’t know exactly what to contribute it to. A few things I would assume, but it’s pretty nice. I feel like I have as much energy as a 20 year old basically. Anyways, I’m going to end this one here and start on Day 33 now.